Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Cyber Friends: The Good, the Bad and the Puzzles

It is no secret that I am a member of Facebook. Through FB, I have “met” some really wonderful people, people that I am glad to know and some I met in real life at RT in April 2009. Like many authors, I have been trying to reach out to people—some have turned into good friends who I love to chat/interact with because they’re great people and we have common interests. I have had people reach out to me when I needed help and I hope I have done the same.

Others, unfortunately, have turned out to be creeps who I promptly block because, really, I don’t want to receive pornographic images and have someone believe it is a turn-on. It’s NOT. Yes, I write romantic fiction and some may see explicit sexuality in print as pornography but I do not. Wikipedia describes pornography as "the depiction of explicit sexual subject matter for the purpose of sexually exciting the viewer. Pornography makes no claim to artistic merit, unlike erotica which does."  I believe my writing has artistic merit even though, like most romance writers, I write sex scenes for the viewer's reading pleasure. It is fantasy, fiction, and not indicative of who I am. I mean, yes, you can tell some things from my style of writing, but I’m not interested in enduring crude attempts at what amount to pick-up lines.

And yet, some others have turned out to be puzzles because I simply did not know what to do. I think the drawbacks of being on social networking sites are outweighed by the good parts of the medium. But some people get the idea that they know me personally and start to make unusual statements, leaving me to scratch my head and wonder where I went wrong in evaluating the person.

I think the issue is there are a lot of lonely, isolated people in the world who are looking for some kind of connection. They take a look at the slice of me, or anyone else for that matter, that I show to the world and think that’s all there is to know. That the small slice means that I am looking for companionship. I mean, I’m single, I write romance: I MUST be looking for more than friendship. The puzzles read more into my profile than actually exists. 

I feel badly for these people and I truly do try to be kind while not encouraging them. Sometimes I succeed and sometimes I don’t. I am not perfect. And meeting someone who seems to have an unrealistic image of me would be unnerving to say the least, which is why I haven't done so, except with people where I can at least verify their identities. I am sure that this is not their intent but unless I meet someone at a convention or through personal friends or have more interaction with a person, I don’t know what anyone is really like. Even then, I am very cautious. And someone who sends me twenty-five requests every day, only serves to make me more wary. Life is not risk-free but that doesn’t mean I will take idiotic chances, such as meeting someone I have never met without taking many, MANY precautions. So far, the only people I have personally met have been other writers.

All the lonely people, where do they all come from?

Monday, May 4, 2009

RT Booklovers Convention 2009 - Orlando, Florida



Well, it's taken me a while to get myself together after RT. First I couldn't find the patch cord to transfer my pics from my camera to my computer and THEN I couldn't find my camera. Sighhhh. But I've got it together now :)

This convention was the first major convention I've attended. I met a bunch of great people, both readers and writers alike. During the Saturday Booksellers Fair, I went around and took photos of authors and others I met around the resort, in seminars, at lunch, at dinner, dancing ... well, you get the idea. These are the pics of some of them.

Michelle Rowan aka Michelle Maddox from the RWA Chapter, Toronto Romance Writers:
Christine D'Abo also from the RWA Chapter, Toronto Romance Writers:


Melissa Lopez, Ellora's Cave author:


Cai Smith and Stephanie Lynch comprise the writing team of Marilu Mann for Ellora's Cave:


Robin Kaye, author:


Annaliese Evans, author:


Cheryl Dragon, Ellora's Cave author:



Sandra Cox, author for Cerridwen Press:

Solange Ayre, author for Ellora's Cave:



Jeania Uplinger, Ellora's Cave Publishing Inc.'s organizer extraordinaire, and hunky Ellora's Cave cover model, Rodney Chapman (God, I hope I got his name right!):


Lynn Cash, Ellora's Cave author, with her cover model, Rodney Chapman (sighhh, some writers have all the luck!):


Dakota Cassidy, author:


Eileen Ann Brennan and Dee Brice, Ellora's Cave authors - lovely, lovely ladies :)

Mechele Armstrong, author, with her book 'The Rivals':

Marissa Alwin, Ellora's Cave author:


These two wonderful ladies, the writing team of C.T. Adams and Cathy Clamp AKA Cat Adams, were the first people I met at the convention. Fresh off the plane and confused by the warmth, sunshine and humidity, these lovely ladies invited me to have lunch with them, even though I had never met them before. I guess I must have looked like a lost writer - LOL :) These multi-published authors won the RT Award for Career Achievement in Paranormal Romance, you can see it in the pic below - YAY!!


Dalton Diaz, Ellora's Cave Author:


Frances Stockton, Cerridwen Press author:


Ciana Stone, Ellora's Cave author, with her cowboy cover model (I really wish I could remember his name - if anyone knows, please contact me and I'll update this post).

Elayne S. Venton, Ellora's Cave Author:


Joanna Waugh, Cerridwen Press Author:


There were many, many more readers and authors I met that are not pictured in this post unfortunately. I am so happy to have met friends, both new and existing, in Orlando.

Until next year's RT Booklovers Convention, everyone, happy writing, reading, editing...

P.S. There were so many people that I MAY have gotten a name wrong - I sincerely hope not! But if so, please let me know - you have my apologies and an update of this post to correct the errors.

Eureka!

I finally have the missing piece. Writers are sort of like golfers—always missing something in the quest for the perfect swing, the perfect method, the perfect word, the perfect tool.

I should have realized this before but being a relatively new writer, I didn’t. I know what my problem is now, halfway through writing my second book. To be perfectly honest, the second book has been more of a trial than the first book. I think I just did things in the first book that happened to work, without knowing why these things were working. First time lucky. Second time has required me to think about what I am doing and how I am doing it. I didn’t pay enough attention the first time.

The first time writer, I think, is sort of like a lone wolf in the woods. Solitary. Without guidance except for instinct. And all too often, I think I, and probably other writers, ignore their instincts because they just want to finish their project. Deadlines, whether imposed by the writer herself/himself or by the publisher/agent/editor, mess with the creative urge. The first book I worked out a method but I wasn’t really paying attention to my surroundings, those things that made it easier for me to write, where the words flowed from my fingertips onto the keyboard, from my voice recognition software into my manuscript.

The missing piece for me is music. I had one of those “slap my forehead”, “D’oh!” moments as I have struggled through my second manuscript. The first book I had written entirely listening to music, being inspired by the music, matching the moods of my scenes to the music to which I listened. And an occasional glass of port. Mustn’t forget the port. I escaped into my fiction, into my story to avoid the other realities of my life at the time.

I don’t know if this is true for most writers, but for me music is an amazing creative tool. It sets the mood, it creates a bubble which the writer inhabits, away from the world. I have music for all moods—from heavy metal (not much) to classical—you name it, I have some variety of it. And my music collection keeps growing as I look for new sources of inspiration for moods. Right now for instance, I am listening to classical music “Any Other Name”, and it’s piano music, so I am in my happy place. Music has always been my happy place, my sad place, my inspired place, the one thing that has never failed me.

To write, I need to block out the world and just “be” in my head. And music seems to reach directly into my emotional centers. I think most people are this way. Music speaks, even if there are no words. But then, music is the universal language. Allowing me, as a writer, to tap into imagery and ideas I may not have had before, not considered before. I close my eyes listening to music and I “see” a scene unfolding on the backs of my eyelids, like a movie screen or television.  I see people, activities, colors. I see more with my ears and my imagination than with my eyes sometimes, a lot of the time.

The words are flowing again, like a spigot that’s been turned on after winter. The flow of music is clearing the rusted debris and cobwebs from the pipes. So I will ride on the crest of my music from now on.

It’s funny in a way. Last night as I signed off from one of my social networking sites, I posted a picture of a palm-from backlit by the moonlight and music to accompany it – Chopin’s Piano Concerto No. 1, Movement 2. The two just seemed to belong together. I listened to that music, staring at the picture, for a long time. Felt it sink into my mind to remind me of what has always been there.

Me and my music.

Friday, May 1, 2009

The Spring of My Life

Every once in a while, I hear someone refer to their early adulthood as the Spring of their lives, their middle age as the Fall of their lives and aged as the Winter of their Discontent (swiped that one from Shakespeare). But the Spring of someone's life always seems to refer to when they were anywhere from eighteen to twenty-nine years old.

I am past my twenties, I won't say how far past, but those days are gone. Thank God. And I am in the Spring of my life, maybe for the first time. I'm sitting in my home, looking out over the horizon of the city, seeing green life poke its nose into Toronto. It's still cool and windy, but Spring is shyly poking it's head out of the trees and ground. Taking a look around to see if it's safe to bloom into riotous life, to see if Winter is over. The Winter of my discontent is finally over, but it took a long time for it to happen.

I think I am aging backwards, if that makes any sense. Youth brings with it so many unknowns and firsts and excitements, middle age can bring dissatisfaction to many, old age can bring despair to others. I think I started off middle aged, Fall, moved into old age, Winter, and have now moved into Spring with the possibilities of my future hanging just barely within my reach from the trees ready to bloom.

All things are possible now, freed from the restraints of the past. I have a brand-spanking new writing career, I have a new home, I have new friends, I am meeting new people, experiencing new things and, for the most part, have left the crippling shyness of my childhood and early adulthood behind. I wouldn't want to be in my twenties again. Too much confusion. Too little confidence in my own abilities.

But now, in the first Spring of my life, I know where I stand. I know myself better, understand myself better, than ever before. And although I am no Spring chicken in years, I am in my life. For the most part, I am enjoying myself and exploring the possibilities revealing themselves almost daily to me. I know what I want, what I don't want, what is possible and what is not possible for me. But the impossibilities dwindle as the days pass.  And I am made new again because of the choices I've made. Hellish choices which turned out so much better than I could ever have imagined a year and a half ago. Things that didn't happen in the past which I regretted at the time, devastated me at the time, have worked out for the best.

Would I change some of my past? Maybe. Probably. But at the same time, my past experiences have made me who I am today. And I like me, just as I am. Perfection would be boring and leave me with nothing to accomplish. I have many things I want to accomplish and in the next few years, I will achieve want I want to achieve, even if I end up taking a circuitous path to my destination. And it will still be Spring when I get to where I go. 

Whenever or where-ever that may be. 

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

First Review of Pitch Dark is In!

The first review of Pitch Dark is in by Literary Nymphs! It is rated as a 4 out of a possible 5 Nymphs: "An impressive read. Quality literature, recommended for anyone who enjoys the genre."

The reviewer noted, "Pitch Dark is a good suspense story...I did not want to put it down." 

I'll take it! :))

To see the full review go to: http://literarynymphsreviewsonly.blogspot.com/2009/04/pitch-dark.html

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Heroes

I hear so many people say that someone is their hero. Actors and famous people qualify as heroes to many people. I can’t say that I fall into this category. I require my heroes to be something important, something special, someone who strives to be more, better, someone worth my admiration. My hero, and I only have one, is my younger sister.

She has all the qualities I admire. She has truly been to hell and back, something most people will never, could never, understand. And no matter the odds, she keeps fighting to improve her life, herself, contribute to the people around her. She is kind, caring, understanding, resilient and wise beyond her years. She started university five or so years ago with the odds stacked against her. She has persevered, worked incredibly hard and never lost sight of her goals when most people would have given up and said it was too difficult, too much.

Anyone who knows her will tell you the same thing. With determination, sheer grit and single-minded purpose, she has taken control of and responsibility for her life. She has a wonderful man who loves her completely and who she loves completely in return. Her life is busy, difficult but filled with people who love and care for her. Because of who she is.

She wages a war every single day. And every single day, she wins against doubts and setbacks by not throwing in the towel. She doesn’t give up. I have never seen or known anyone who works as hard, tries as hard, as she does.

I am proud to call her my sister, my friend, my confidant.

My hero.

Monday, April 6, 2009

Please Welcome Author Paul Levine!

Please help me to welcome author, Paul Levine. This former lawyer’s many books have been acclaimed as “Genuinely Chilling” by the Washington Post and as “Mystery Writing at its very, very best” by Larry King on USA Today.

His newest novel, Illegal, has won rave reviews:
“ILLEGAL is a riveting read, filled with action, pathos, and even humor. The portrait of the dangers and predations that Latinos face crossing the border is chilling and rings with authenticity. But the book’s best quality is the way Levine invests his characters with believable humanity. A compulsively readable yet character-driven thriller.” - Booklist

"Entertaining. Payne has a broad enough backstory and personal charm to head up a series on his own." - Publishers Weekly

"This pedal-to-the-medal thriller wraps a gripping story around a current topic. Levine knows how to turn a phrase, especially with the colorful characters he's created." - Romantic Times

Paul Levine worked as a newspaper reporter, a law professor and a trial lawyer before becoming a full-time novelist.

“Obviously, I cannot hold a job,” he says.

Paul claims that writing fiction comes naturally: “I told whoppers for many years in my legal briefs.”

He is the author of the “Jake Lassiter series” for which he won the John D. MacDonald award and the “Solomon vs. Lord” books which were nominated for an Edgar, a Macavity, a Thriller Writers award and the James Thurber Prize. His books have been translated into 23 languages, none of which he can read. In Germany, for reasons he does not understand, he is published under the name “Polly Levine.”

His novel, “Illegal” (Bantam Hardcover), introduces Jimmy (Royal) Payne. The down-and-out L.A. lawyer pans to skip town, but he crosses paths with 12-year-old Tino Perez, newly arrived from Mexico with no money, no papers, and no fear. The gutsy kid wants Payne’s help. Marisol, Tino’s mother, disappeared when a border crossing went to hell. The dilemma for Payne: should he help these total strangers or look out for himself? Against his better judgment, Payne tracks Marisol from Mexicali to California’s Hellhole Canyon where he’s swept into the dark current of human trafficking and sexual slavery.


Brooke: Your earlier books were very humorous. Does “Illegal” take you in a new direction?

Paul: The “Solomon vs. Lord” novels relied heavily on banter between Steve Solomon and Victoria Lord. The series was my homage to Katherine Hepburn and Spency Tracy movies. “Illegal” has more meat on its bones. It deals with serious issues of broken borders, illegal immigration, and human trafficking. But the number one goal of popular fiction is to entertain. In the opening scene, Payne is stark naked being searched for a wire by a suspicious judge. Payne is, after all, trying to bribe the judge. There’s more than a sprinkling of humor in the book.


BL: What’s the main difference between caper novels like your earlier ones and true thrillers like “Illegal?”

Paul: As a thriller, suspense and jeopardy are the bywords. There are many harrowing moments in “Illegal.” The midnight border crossing; the meth-addled stash house guard who shoots apples off the heads of the migrants, the bloody kill floor of the meatpacking plant, and the threats of the land baron who can bury people in a levee where they’ll never be found. The tension ratchets up as the stakes become higher: will it be life or death for Jimmy Payne, Tino and Marisol Perez?


BL: How much of Paul Levine is in the character of Jimmy Payne?

Paul: Payne is a damaged character. I'm 61, an age where everyone is damaged in one way or another. A bad marriage, a career setback, a dark spot that turns up on the x-ray. All life is about loss. Payne, in some ways, is a more real character than Jake Lassiter or Steve Solomon. He’s had a tragedy – I don’t want to give away here – that unbalances him. He begins the book looking for revenge and ends it risking his life for strangers.


BL: ILLEGAL is much darker in tone than the Solomon vs. Lord novels. Can you share how it felt to switch from writing the more comedic Solomon vs. Lord books to ILLEGAL? Was it difficult to make the transition from writing about Steve and Victoria to writing about Jimmy and Sharon?

Paul: Sly humor is my natural tone of voice, so Solomon vs. Lord was a hanging curve ball right right over the middle of the plate. Two people are attracted to each other but drive each other crazy...well, that's just plain fun to write and read. But it's different with Payne. Once you create a character who has suffered a life-altering tragedy, there's no room for pie-in-the-face yucks. That doesn't mean Payne is without humor. He's filled with anger, and his wit is biting. Payne uses zingers as a sword, not a shield. So, now not more difficult to write Payne, just more payne-ful. Once I knew who he was, he flowed naturally onto the page.


BL: What would you do to resolve the illegal immigration problem?

Paul: The book is clearly sympathetic to hard-working people who risk their lives to come here and are preyed upon by predators on both sides of the border. The cruelty inflicted on the immigrants --- particularly south of the border --- is really horrible. I set up debates between the open borders advocates and those who would place machine gun turrets in El Paso. This sounds like a cop out, but I don't have the answers. Obviously, we can't deport millions of people. Security is being upgraded along the border, but there's a new problem. Mexican drug cartels are taking over human trafficking operations. More violence is sure to follow. This problem is going to explode soon, and I'm not sure we're ready for it.



BL: What inspired you to take on a story with such social significance?

Paul: Several things came together to influence and inspire me. Residents of San Di
ego County and Imperial County are familiar with the yellow "Caution" signs with the man, woman, and child running across the road. It's a warning to be on the lookout for illegals who might dash in front of your car like a deer leaping from the woods. I saw one sign pockmarked by bullets. Well, that's a pretty good image to get the mind working. "Welcome to the U.S." About the same time was the news story about the undocumented aliens locked in the back of a metal refrigeration truck (with no refrigeration on). Several baked to death in a run across the desert.


BL: Your dedication in ILLEGAL is as follows: “To the woman carrying a rucksack, clutching her child’s hand, and kicking up dust as she scrambled along a desert trail near Calexico, California.” Did this encounter provide the inspiration for Marisol and Tino?

Paul: It sure did. I had a chance encounter with a mother and son who had just gotten out of the toxic New River, a poisonous dump of a stream that flows north from Mexico. Well, that did it. They were Marisol and Tino Perez, but in my imagination, they become separated at the border. She goes missing, and Tino must get Jimmy Payne --- a guy who these days doesn't help anyone --- to help him. By the way, I wrote a short piece about my border encounter. http://live.psu.edu/story/38537


BL: What’s next for you?

Paul: Another Jimmy Payne. Working on it now, but I can’t tell you anything about it except that 12-year-old Tino will be back, too.

Thanks so much for joining us here today, Paul! I can't wait to read Illegal.

Read more about “Illegal” at http://www.paul-levine.com


Blurb:
Jimmy (Royal) Payne, a down-on-his-luck lawyer, battles cops, coyotes, and a corrupt and powerful rancher, as he tracks a beautiful Mexican woman who disappeared on a midnight border crossing, and is swept into the world of human trafficking.



Haunted by a tragedy in his past and wanted by the cops for his latest malfeasance, Jimmy Payne needs to skip town. That’s when he crosses paths with twelve-year-old Tino Perez, newly arrived from Mexico with no money and no papers. The gutsy kid first robs Payne, then pleads for his help. Marisol, the boy’s mother, is missing, after crossing the border with a vicious coyote.



Following a chain of greed, corruption, and betrayal, Payne traces Marisol’s steps from Mexicali to California’s Hellhole Canyon. Before long, the cynical lawyer and the savvy kid are bonding…and battling predators on both sides of the border. It’s the two of them against an army of cops, coyotes, vigilantes, and sex slavers.

Most dangerous of all is Simeon Rutledge, a wealthy rancher and the biggest employer of farm workers in California.
Just why is Rutledge willing to bribe Payne—or kill him—to keep Marisol under wraps? Will Payne’s quest redeem his mistakes and resurrect his dead marriage—or get him buried in a shallow grave? Either way, he’ll find out there’s no escaping his past.



From the shadows of migrant stash houses to the fertile fields of the San Joaquin Valley, Illegal delivers a searing mix of live-wire prose, shattering violence, and rich characterization, all set against a backdrop of larger social issues.

Excerpt
ONE


Judge Rollins drew a handgun from beneath his black robes, pointed the snub-nosed barrel at Jimmy Payne’s chest and said, “Who you pimping for, you low-life shyster?”



Payne gaped at the revolver.

 This cannot be happening. 



The judge gestured toward the stacks of hundred dollar bills on his desk. “C’mon, Payne. You’re not smart enough to dream this up on your own.”



They faced each other in the judge’s chambers, a tranquil place of leather-bound books and walnut wainscoting. Payne felt his knees wobble. “I swear, Judge. I just represent the defendant. Ramon Carollo.”



“Not like you to defend human traffickers. I remember the hell you raised when those wetbacks got barbecued in a trailer truck.”



“I like to call them ‘undocumented aliens.’”



“Why? They from Mars?” 

The judge vaulted out of his high-backed chair. Quick for a big man. Silver hair swept straight back, like feathers on a snow goose. Shoulders as wide as a bookcase. 

“Take off your clothes.” 



“What?”



“You heard me.”



“I swear I’m not wearing a wire. You can pat me down.”



“Strip!”


Payne wasn’t sure he could. His joints seemed rusted shut. 



“Now!”



With jerky motions, Payne kicked off his shoes, unhooked his belt, and dropped his trousers. 



“You bring me nine stacks of hundred dollar bills, fifty to a stack.” Judge Rollins motioned toward the open briefcase on his desk and did the math in his head. “Forty-five thousand dollars.”



“That’s the offer,” Payne agreed.



“Odd amount. Like it was supposed to be fifty thousand, but some half-assed bagman skimmed five off the top.”



“No, Sir.” Payne lowered his tie slipped out of his shirt. “Forty-five is all I’ve got to spend.”



“No sale, shitbird.”



“I thought it was worth a shot, Your Honor. But let’s just forget the whole thing. I’ll put my pants on and--”



“Drop those undershorts, too.” The judge waved the gun like a king with a scepter. 



Payne pulled down his red and white boxers with the Los Angeles Clippers’ logo. He preferred them to the Lakers’ purple and gold shorts, not for the colors, but because he favored underdogs. 



“Now, turn around and spread your cheeks.”



“No way, Judge.”



“Do it!”



At 37, Payne was in good shape. Flat stomach, decent chest, a sinewy runner’s body. He spun around and bent over.

“Like I said, Your Honor, no wire.”



Judge Rollins gazed off. “I don’t know whether to shoot you or arrest you.”

Jimmy straightened up and turned around. “Just let me go, Judge. There’s a lot of good I can do out there.”



“Out where? You’re Jimmy Payne. Royal Payne. You cut corners. You represent undesirables. You piss people off.”



“Honestly, Judge. I’m gonna change my life.”



“People don’t change, Payne. They just get old and die. Sometimes, they don’t even get old.”



Jimmy stepped sideways toward a set of shelves decorated with framed vanity photos. Judge Rollins with Mayor Villaraigosa, Senator Boxer, some local bigwigs, and a pretty young woman in a pink sash, the Rose Bowl queen, maybe. Alongside the photos, the scales of justice. Bronze. Heavy. Tilted heavily to one side. One more step and Payne could grab the scales by the blindfolded lady and take swing at the judge.



“Freeze, sleazebag.” Rollins pulled back the hammer of the .38.

With the click echoing in his brain, Payne thought of his son, Adam. Ten years old. Loved baseball. Cheeseburgers. Surfing. A boy needs his father.



Just how the hell did I get into this?

TWO



One hour before he stood, naked and terrified, in the chambers of the Honorable Walter Rollins, Jimmy Payne stood, clothed and angry, glaring at a wooden pin some sixty feet away.



The five-pin.



Payne hated the five-pin nearly as much as he hated Cullen Quinn, his ex-wife’s fiancĂ©. And there the damn thing stood – the pin, not Quinn – smack in the middle of the lane, taunting him. For most bowlers, the five was the easiest spare, but for Payne, the ten-pin – that loner at the right edge of the lane – was the gimmee. The trick, he knew, was not being afraid of dropping into the gutter. 


Payne’s second ball whooshed past the five and thwomped harmlessly into the pit, leaving the pin standing. Giving him the finger.



Damn. Even Barack Obama could have made that spare. 



So could Payne’s son. He thought about taking Adam bowling this weekend. His eleventh birthday was coming up, and the boy already threw a decent little hook.



Payne checked the counter behind the ball rack. The stranger was still there, watching him. He had shown up around the third frame, sipping coffee from a Styrofoam cup. Blue shirt, striped tie thickly knotted, cheap tan suit that needed pressing. Hair that might have been blond once, now turned the yellowish brown of a nicotine stain. A gum chewer with jaw muscles dancing, a face of angles and planes, a cold stare. A cop? Homicide, maybe.



Not a problem. Payne hadn’t killed anyone. He hadn’t even represented a murderer in a couple years. Bar brawlers, check bouncers, hookers from the Sepulveda Corridor. He could use a good murder trial right now. Or a personal injury case with fractures to weight-bearing bones. Even a nasty divorce would do. Lacking any decent cases, bowling alone on a weekday morning provided a break from bill collectors and anger management classes. 



Payne hoisted his Hammer Road Hawg from the ball return and settled into his stance. Sensing movement, he glanced over his shoulder. Wrinkled Suit was headed his way. Payne considered challenging the guy to three games at 10 bucks a pin. 



“Morning, J. Atticus Payne.” 



Keeping the ball at hip level, Payne turned to face the man. “Jimmy. Jimmy Payne.” 



“Your Bar card says ‘J. Atticus.’”



“My parents were hoping I’d grow up to be Gregory Peck.”



“Nah. They named you ‘James Andrew.’ You changed it. Not legally, of course. Just made it up and put it on your driver’s license, which also says you’re six feet tall when you’re really five-eleven. You make up a lot of shit.”



Grinning now, gotcha. Like he was Sherlock Fucking Holmes. 



“Some people think Atticus fits,” Payne said, thinking of his ex-wife Sharon. 



“What slimeball you gonna walk today, Atticus?”



That was before she started calling him “the respondent.” When Sharon divorced him, her bill of particulars included his reputation for sleazy behavior.



“Respondent has engaged in a pattern of professional activity that is a source of embarrassment to Petitioner, a police officer.”



If he’d been different, Payne wondered, if he’d made more money and been more respectable, if he’d lunched at the California Club instead of Hooters, would Sharon still be his wife? 



Nah, that wasn’t the issue. 



“You weren’t here for me when I needed you, Jimmy.” 



“Why do you lie so much?” Wrinkled Suit asked. 



Payne shrugged. “I’m a lawyer.”



“You rolled a baby split in the third frame. The three-ten. Very make-able. But you hit the reset, erased the score, and bowled again.”



“That a crime?”



“What kind of guy cheats when he’s bowling alone?”



“Maybe a guy who wants a second chance.”



“To do what? Tell a client to flee the jurisdiction?” 



“Who the hell are you?”



The man reached into his jacket pocket and flipped open a vinyl wallet with an L.A.P.D. badge and photo I.D. 



Payne read aloud. “‘Detective Eugene Rigney. Public Integrity Unit.’ Kinda wussy, isn’t it? I mean, compared to Robbery Homicide. Or SWAT.” 



He turned toward the pins and took his four-step approach. A high back swing, a wrist-snapping release, a fluid follow through. The ball skidded on the oil, dug in, and hooked hard left into the pocket. A big mix, the clatter of rolling logs. The skinny neck of the six-pin kissed the ten, pushing it over like a wobbly drunk.



Strike! Take that, Mr. Public Integrity.



Rigney didn’t look impressed. “You gotta do something for me, Payne.”



“What?”



“Bribe a judge.” The cop looked at his watch. “And you’ve got one hour to do it.”